I grew up in a blue collar home – my dad worked 7 days a week and my mother was a stay at home mom of three children. My mother cooked our meals.

Life was fun! I was a skinny athlete, who loved sports and being outside. I loved chasing boys, and skunks! I built my own tree house with some spare wood around the house. I remember dreaming about heaven when I was a young girl.

Unfortunately, ever since I was single digits – I started going to specialist after specialist being diagnosed with all sorts of unfathomable diagnoses. First it was irritable bowel syndrome (IBS) around 8, next it was kidney stones for two years straight in middle school, then it was TMJ where my jaw physically got stuck closed – all signs were pointing that my body was stressed.

By 15, it was an autoimmune disease, I pre-diabetic and infertile. I was always a medical phenomenon because I was a skinny athlete and my mother did not feed us fast food or fried foods – she fed us the Standard American Diet, and yet, I kept getting more sick.

I grew up with mustard size seed faith – I believed in God and Jesus Christ, but had a worldly relationship with them. I did not attend a church that taught Jesus of the Bible – I do not know what Jesus they were preaching, but I will tell you I stopped attending after they said, “Jesus drives a Cadillac.” I was poor and I knew for a fact Jesus did not drive a Cadillac. I was done!

Around 18, is when the emotional stress poured on. I became anxious, depressed, and started having nightmares of being raped/tortured as a child. What I was seeing, felt real, however, who would believe me?

I had no proof nor did I ever tell anyone when I was a child. I didn’t think my parents would believe me.

The vivid images and flashbacks would not stop.  I became stressed, anxious, depressed and started battling suicidal thoughts.

I went on to University after high school and graduated in 4-years with a dual degree in elementary and special education. I landed by dream job right away and that is when I started going for yearly blood-work, and that is when I was diagnosed with heart disease.

Throughout my twenties I battled more chronic pain and disease diagnoses. I thought I could ignore the pain. I traveled the world. I made a ton of money. I bought myself anything I wanted – a dream come true!

I was pretty – men flocked to me and bought me nice things. Yet, I was never happy. I would never smile. I thought the job would make me happy. I thought the friends, nice things, and trips would bring my happiness, but it didn’t.

Imagine an avalanche falling off a mountain and hitting the top of your head. Do you think you would survive?
That happened to me in 2014 – except it was a slate sheet of solid ice that fell off a 4-story slate roof building (no guards!) and hit the top of my head as I was leaving work as a Resource Room teacher.

I was still standing – can you imagine? I knew God saved me. I knew God had a plan for me, but WHAT!? I kept ignoring the pain because the court appointed doctors told me I was fit to work. Imagine being told you’re fit to work but you have a constant migraine circling your head  which you described as lightning bolts shooting through your head.  I also had 24/7 migraines, dizziness, nausea and became a walking insomniac.  Life was horrible.

By 31, I was completely disabled in bed, and being FORCED to resign from my job, because the judges/lawyers did not care about me getting better. Only I did! This is what God does, though! I was an idolatrous woman! God destroys our idols, so we humble ourselves and seek Him.

God took my memory because I had none.  God took all my money as I spent it on every specialist, guru, injection, supplement, pill and therapy modality.  You name it and I did it! God took my career.  God took my belongings as I sold those to attempt to get better.

I was disabled and broke living in my childhood bedroom with my parents taking care of me. 2 Chronicles 7:14 says, “If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land.”

That is exactly what I finally did! The Holy Spirit started visiting me in my bed disabled in 2016 saying two things: “You have to help people in your position and if you do not get this under control, you will get cancer.” 

I fought with Him because I thought, “how I could help anyone?”  Eventually I realized I had over 80 symptoms/diagnoses. I was sick with chronic pain and disease since childhood and if I did not get this under control, I was going to get cancer.

That is when I snapped out of the matrix. I humbled myself and called on Jesus to save me. I took that mustard size seed faith that I had since being young, and knew if anyone could help me.  It was Jesus!

In 2017 Jesus guided me to heal my body naturally, I listened. Within 60 days I went from being disabled in bed, in pain head to toe, 30lbs overweight to getting out of bed, losing 30lbs, walking outside, happier, healthier, and I came to the realization: I have to help people in my position.

The Great Physician has guided me to reverse all chronic pain and disease from my body.  I am healed and have been on my sanctification process since 2017.

I will take you from the nations and gather you from all the countries and bring you into your own land. I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleannesses, and from all your idols I will cleanse you. And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules. Ezekiel 36:24‭-‬27

God has showed me what idolatry truly is – and all my uncleanliness over the years. I became a Born Again Christian in 2022, being Baptized. I remember once I came up from under the water, I could not stop laughing like a child, a child-like innocence!

My Advice

Christ Jesus is the Great Physician. Ask Him to save you. Call on Him – save me, Jesus. I know you can heal me, help me, show me, I am open for Your help. Come be with me. AND TRUST that Christ Jesus is going to come save you. He saves all those who call and ask Him – be ready to let go of outdated habits, thoughts, and beliefs – and be open to having a new heart, new mind, and new soul without pain.